Thursday Mind Musings

* Christmas is only 17 days away!!!!! I'm so excited I can barely stand it! How am I going to get all my shopping and decorating and baking done before Christmas?! Ahhh!!!

* The weather is definitely cooling down here on St John! The days remain a balmy 80 to 85 degrees, but the nights have been bringing cooler air in, which is awesome since like a majority of the island, we don't have AC!

* I've been listening to Christmas music non-stop! My playlist of favorite Christmas and holiday tunes grows by the year:

Christmas Eve/ Sarajevo 12/24 by Trans-Siberian Orchestra

The Holly & The Ivy by Annie Lennox

All I Want for Christmas is a Real Good Tan by Kenny Chesney

Ave Maria by Celtic Women

Carol of the Bells by Mannheim Steamroller

Last Christmas by Wham!

Christmastime is Here by Charlie Brown Holiday Hits

Silent Night by The Temptations

All I Want for Christmas is You by Mariah Carey

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year by Andy Williams

Happy Xmas by John Lennon

* To sum life up these days: work, beach, bar, home, love, friends, happiness & laughter: Life is good, and I am very thankful:)

* Oh and I've decided to rename these entries from "Mind Dump" to "Mind Musings" for two reasons: first, I love alliteration! And second the word "dump" was making me uncomfortable!

Hope everyone has a beautiful day!

Friday Mind Dump

* My therapist stood me up this morning!!! I was very stressed and upset about it but I'm trying to calm down because I don't want it to ruin my day. I know this sounds silly but how does someone just not show up? Maybe he had an emergency or something?... I called him twice and waited outside his office for 25 minutes and nothing, and I still haven't heard from him. Not happy about that!

* I've been so tired lately. I think my crazy, non-stop work schedule is really kicking my butt lately! I just keep telling myself that it'll be worth it when Sky and I are on our month long honeymoon next year...

* The weather is beautiful today!!! I wish I was spending the day on the beach instead of in the office!

* Today is 11/11/11!!! When I was younger I remember daydreaming that I might get married on this date! I made my wish at 11:11am! Did you?

* This time change is throwing me off! I keep forgetting that I'm an hour ahead of my East Coast friends and family! I'll get it right one of these days...

* Now that I'm finished watching the L word series I feel lost without those girls!!! Only 6 season?! Come on! Boo. The DVD box set is going on my Christmas list this year!!!

* I finally got my laptop back!!! Yay!!!! So look out for engagement photos, lots of blogging, and updates on our wedding website!!!!

That's all for me today! Hope everyone has a Happy Friday and a beautiful weekend!!!!

Tuesday Mind Dump

* I played hooky yesterday from work and spent the day on the beach! I met up with a friend who I hadn't seen since high school! It was fun to catch up and hang out on the beach with fruity drinks with Desiree and her friend Christina. So random that I would see a familiar face from almost a decade ago here in the islands! Small world:)

* I have hit a wall with the wedding planning! I think I'm just burned out from being excited and trying to plan so much all at once in the beginning. I'm giving myself a two week break, then back to it! This wedding isn't going to plan itself...

* Still on my L word kick. I'm currently on Season 5. I'm obsessed! I've been watching so much of it that they feel like real people in my life. That's sad, huh?

* Part of me wants to upgrade my iPhone to the 4S, but I know by the time I get around to buying it, the iPhone 5 will probably be out, and then I'll be pissed for upgrading only to have to upgrade again. So I should just wait for the iPhone 5, right?...

* HALLOWEEN IS COMING!!!!! I am getting so super excited! Sky and I are going to be troopers this year. And by that I mean we plan to party until we can't see straight. We have plans to dress-up and go out Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday nights! Halloween is a big deal on St John and I can't wait to experience it this weekend:) So excited!!!!

Have a happy Tuesday all!!!

Wednesday Mind Dump

* I found a new therapist/life coach! I was referred to him by a friend of a friend. I met with him recently and I feel very good about working together with him. I have been struggling with finding a therapist that I like and trust, someone I feel understands me and the goals I'm trying to accomplish through therapy. This one session with my new counselor was a very different, but positive, experience than the ones I've had over the past year. I'm very hopeful!

* I know I keep saying this, but I have BRUISES everywhere from surfing. Not usually a big deal to anyone, but I can count on one hand how many bruises I've had in my entire life! So having them all over is sort of fascinating but weird! I keep looking at them and poking them.

* My new favorite series is The L Word. I'm starting it from the beginning, and I love it! Bette and Tina are my favorite couple! I also think Marina is ridiculously beautiful. The soundtrack to the series is pretty awful though. That's the only thing I found that I don't care for. Other than that I'm hooked!

* Sky and I did our engagement photos on Monday! It was so much fun being in front of the camera goofing off and being sweet with Sky. I'm very excited to see the results and be able to share them with everyone!

* I am having the best time ever planning our wedding! Part of me wishes we had more than 11 months to go until the wedding, because it seems like it's flying by! Everyone tells me that it does go by quickly, and I am seeing that now!

* I just walked around the grocery store for 15 minutes trying to figure out what I want to eat. Nothing seems good today. So I'm skipping lunch today.

* I saw the Endless Summer last night for the first time. Very cool!

* I'm feeling under the weather today but listening to my Rent station on Pandora is making work bearable today.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day:)

Tuesday Mind Dump

* I am rocking the hippie look today. Colorful scarf in my hair, long white flowy skirt, and bangles. I love it!!!

* I have a surfing date with a friend on Wednesday and Friday! I'm super excited about it. I love surfing so much I've been dreaming about it. Did I mention that Sky and I plan on getting surf boards for Christmas?! Super excited!! We plan on getting boards that we can both ride so Sky has suggested getting a pink and blue board that says His & Hers. How cute?!

* I was doing so well reading real books the last few months! You know biographies, self-help, educational books, NYT Best Sellers, and whatnot. But the last two weeks I find myself devouring trashy romance novels at a very rapid pace. It makes me feel a little guilty, but reading is reading, right?!

* It seems like everything online is constantly changing! New Facebook, new Blogger, new 20 Something, new Yahoo... I never realized how much I am annoyed by change until all of my favorite sites started updating. The positive side to this? Every time something new does change, I bitch a little less about it. I figure the internet is helping to make me a better, less irritable person in a roundabout way.

* I am happy (finally!) on the work front here on St John. During the day I work as a receptionist at a catering company, and I work in a little gift shop on nights and weekends. This means I work 7 days a week, but I love it! I'm busy and it helps to relieve my boredom, since I have something to do every day. I think I'll eventually get burned out so I don't plan on doing this schedule for long, but for now it's awesome. And my bosses are great, and so is the pay! Love my jobs!

* Life is sooooo slow on island these days. It's slow season here, which means that about half of the restaurants have closed for about a month, very few tourists are visiting, lots of the locals are on summer vacation and there seems to be NOTHING going on event-wise. If it weren't for work, I would be stir crazy. I am so glad October is almost here.

* Speaking of October, WHERE has this year gone?! I swear I was just celebrating my birthday (February) and now it's the end of September. I feel like life is flying by and I'm in slow motion or something. Crazy!

* Almost finished with work for the day. I have a date with the beach this afternoon:)

Happy Tuesday!!!
xoxo

Monday Mind Dump

* Today I'm catching up on Glee and cleaning the house during commercials. I've made it to the season finale already. I'm sad that I have to go all summer with no Glee!!!

* The weather in St John seems so crazy this year! The winter was noticeably cooler and we've had a crazy amount of rainy, overcast days over the past couple of months. I am very much looking forward to a long, hot summer!

* I won't name names (how hard could it be to guess?) but someone likes to yell at me for how much dish soap I use. My comeback? My dishes are noticeably cleaner than his. For some reason he's also weird about how much laundry detergent I use. Maybe he's scared of soap? :)

* I adopted a new stuffed animal! He's a cute sailor bear named Myles! Love him!

* We still don't have cable. And renting movies at $4 a movie, per night is getting expensive! Hulu has become my best friend lately!

* Who invented mayonnaise? And who thought to put it on sandwiches?! Genius!

* Sky set a daily reminder for me to take my Zoloft. It says" Time to take your crazy pill lovey". I'm annoyed by it but also find it very cute!

I hope everyone is having a Happy Monday! I'm off to work:)

Tuesday Mind Dump

* My apartment needs a good scrub down but I just can't find the energy or motivation to do it. I just dislike this apartment so much! I'm giving myself 30 more minutes of "play time" and then I'll start tackling it. I hope!

* I have a lunch date today! We're going to Caneel Bay for the buffet. I've never been but I hear it's yummy!

* I saw one of my ER doctors dancing in the parade at Carnival this last weekend! If you look at the photos I posted earlier, he's one of the guys in the bright, shiny metallic outfit. He even recognized me and waved! I thought it was hilarious! Only in the VI...

* I'm trying to upload videos from Carnival but the internet is soooo slow here that I'm not sure if they will ever finish loading!!

* I've started applying for jobs in Hawaii. I'm thinking of going as early as late summer. Yes, I'm really going!! Wish me luck!!

* One of my worst fears came true a few nights ago: I woke up to a palmetto bug (which is a nice way to say a huge, ugly, scary, you-know-what) running up my arm!!!!! I had a total freak out and then a melt down at 3am. Did I mention I hate my apartment? No matter how much we spray and spray and spray some more, they keep showing up. Thank goodness I only see one every few days. But still, that many is TOO many for me. Gross.

* I've been meditating and chanting again. Sometimes my meditation is just sitting quietly and listening to the sound of my breathing. Even a few months ago, sitting quietly was very hard for me. I would start thinking about everything and overwhelm myself and end up in tears. So I'm happy that I'm slowly getting back into it.

* There's the cutest, tiniest little lizard that lives in the store where I work. My boss and I named him Gordon, Gordie for short. I've tried to get pictures of him, but he's so tiny and fast! I think he's camera shy.

* There's a chance that Sky and I will be able to sail down island next month on a friend's boat. I hope it works out!! I would love to go!!

I hope everyone is having a good Tuesday so far. :)

Saturday Mind Dump

* I am so excited about tomorrow: breakfast and Mimosas at my favorite breakfast place, a boat trip to Jost Van Dyke, hanging out on the beach all day, and over to Willy T's for a topless jump if we have time!!!  Tomorrow is going to be amazing!!!!

* I'm seeing my doctor on Tuesday as a follow up to the surgery. I'm not 100% sure everything is healing okay, so I'm nervous! We'll see what he says.

* I'm trying to plan a vacation and I'm a little frustrated. I'm attempting to decide if we should go to Puerto Rico, Tortola, St Croix or somewhere down island. There are too many choices!!! And Sky is not helping at all on this one. I get so overwhelmed with the planning that I just quit and keep putting it off. At this rate we won't vacation until October! And I was shocked to realize that we have never been on a vacation with just the two of us. Weird!

* I think my manager knows I'm goofing off today. She keeps coming in and asking me the same things over and over again. She's not even on duty!!! I wish she would go away!!!! And speak of the devil, guess who just walked through the door AGAIN...

* I need a massage. And a pedicure!! Oh it's been too long since I had a spa day.

* I had a dream about my ex-best friend. In it we both cried and apologized and hugged and said "I love yous". When I woke up I thought it had really happened so I was so happy!! And then I realized it was a dream. That was very much a let-down...

* I met someone yesterday who told me that I was an "old soul" and that this was my "last life here on Earth". Spooky!!! Well I should explain that it was spooky because just recently I started Google-ing and reading everything I could get my hands on about Reincarnation. And this wasn't just a random kooky person. We had a very in-depth conversation about astrology and the Zodiac and reincarnation and all sorts of other interesting things. I thought it was very cool and I'm excited to see him again!

That's all from me!! Happy Saturday!!!!

Thursday Mind Dump

* I just had a Skype call sitting on my porch, completely naked. It made me laugh!

* I feel skinny today! Probably because I've recently lost about 5 pounds. My weight is all over the place this last year.

* I am dreading May 1st. It was supposed to be my due date. I'm mentally preparing myself for a breakdown, but I'm also trying to plan something extremely fun and crazy for that day: something I wouldn't be able to do if I was about to, or just recently, had a baby. Still working on the details...

* I can't remember what the ocean feels or tastes like. I haven't been to the beach since February. And I'm so busy working to try to catch up from my hospitalization, that I'm not sure when will be the next time I'll have a chance to get there. That makes me a little sad.

* I haven't been sleeping well at all for weeks now. Can you form a resistance to Benadryl and Tylenol PM? They don't seem to be as effective as they used to be for me. And my doctor isn't being helpful in that department. He doesn't want to prescribe anything else.

* I'm really enjoying learning Italian. I'm using several websites, a couple of iPhone apps, and a good old fashioned textbook to help myself learn. The textbook is helping with the basics of the language and the apps and websites help me out a lot when I need to hear the correct pronunciation of the words I'm learning. It's a challenge, but fun!

* I'm really debating on whether or not to go home this summer. It seems like a lot of emotional and mental turmoil waiting to happen. I'm just so unsure. So for now all summer plans are on hold...

* I've decided no on the tattoo, but yes on the boobs!!!! But that can change at any given moment, I'm sure.

I would say I'm looking forward to the weekend, but I'm not. It'll be work, work and more work for me. I hope everyone's doing something more exciting than I am!

Friday Mind Dump

* The weather has been yucky the last few days. That wouldn't be so bad if I didn't drive a convertible that currently has no top on it. I've taken to driving around wearing a bright yellow rain slicker! I've gotten some looks but it keeps me dry!

* Very suddenly I am missing Atlanta. A bunch. Could it have something to do with a text convo I had with a friend recently? Why, yes, I think so. Don't you know how easily I am swayed by now? Hmmph. Besides, my love for Atlanta has always been the deepest at spring time. Life in Atlanta in Spring is perfection.

* The bugs have found me again. I have countless no-see-um bites. Boo. But I have rediscovered Skin So Soft, which Granny used to douse on us as children. It keeps the bugs away, but it smells funny! Brings back good memories though.

* I spent $67 at the grocery store yesterday. Here's what I left with: a mini watermelon, a pound of carrots, one squash, one pound of grapes, a bag of pretzels, a pound of chicken, a pound of ground beef, a bag of black beans and rice, a peach cobbler and a bag of ice. How far can $67 get you?

* I'm going through tv withdrawals!!!! The VI went digital so our tv is out until we get cable. And with everything I've heard about the local cable company's customer service, it will be some time before that happens.

* I'm very much looking forward to my next counseling session. It's not for another two weeks, so I'm trying to be patient!

* I'm finally reading Eat, Pray, Love and I can't put it down!! I don't know why it took me so long to start it, but now that I have I am in love with the story and her writing style. I'm even more in love with the book than I am with the movie!

* I've been obsessed with the mini series "Rome" lately. It is extremely graphic and violent, but also very interesting and kind of sexy!

* My intense need to have a dog has passed. Was it a phase or a genuine wish? I'm not sure. We'll see!

* I have put every good vibe I can think of out into the Universe to help me get this job I want so badly! Maybe if you send good vibes too it'll happen for me?! :)


I hope everyone has something wonderful planned for this weekend. I'll be working away! Happy Friday!!!!

Sunday Mind Dump

* Since my blood transfusion the mosquitoes and no see-ums are much kinder to me. Coincidence? I don't think so!

* I miss D and S more than words!!!! What I wouldn't give to be kept up until 1am by my two favorite giggling girls:)

* I just ran up the stairs for the first time in a month! And then it hurt. But it was fun while I was doing it!

* I'm pretty sure I look kinda hot today. I think.

* There is someone I want to say "You were right" to but I'm too embarrassed. Well that and I'm not sure they even care. So I'll say it here: "You were right!".

* I am obsessed with all things Hawaii these days!!! I want to go soooo badly!!!!!

* I'm not sure if I'm just going through a phase or if I'm just picking the wrong books, but I'm bored by EVERYTHING I'm reading these days. Nothing is holding my attention. It's frustrating.

* I'm recently addicted to Twitter. As if I need anymore time wasters in my life!

* It dawned on me that if I wear heavy duty yellow gloves to clean, that I'm a much better cleaner! They make me brave:)

* I'm excited to see The Simpsons tonight!! And Family Guy!!

I hope everyone had an amazing weekend!!! Happy Sunday evening:)

Friday Mind Dump

* It's been a bit since I last blogged! I've been busy getting settled and reacquainted with the island and friends:)

* I have a new job which I'm pretty excited about! I help run the St John Inn. It's different than anything else I've done, but I like it, the work is interesting and it keeps me busy!

* No matter how often I douse myself in bug spray, the "no see-ems" are constantly attacking me. Add to that the fact that dengue fever is going around again, I'm freaking out. And itchy. I'm tempted to apply 100% DEET onto my skin.

* I'm happier right now than I have been in months. Although I have to be honest and say that while I am hoping for the best, a part of me is still wary. So I would say that I am hesitantly optimistic. And I'm okay with that for right now.

* I'm undecided on how to spend my afternoon after I'm through with work today. I need to do laundry, but I'm sleepy and I want a nap, but I also need a pedicure!! Although, let's be honest: I doubt I'll be getting any laundry done today. So sleep or pretty toes?

* I'm super excited about this weekend!! Sleeping late, breakfast at Donkey Diner, sailing, and going to see live music tonight and tomorrow night!!

* I'm reading a new book called Year of Wonders and I'm totally and utterly bored by it! I need some new reading suggestions.

I hope you all have a fun and/or relaxing weekend ahead of you too! Happy Friday:)

Monday Mind Dump

* I had a grumpy day. I think it's because I only managed to get about 4 hours of sleep last night, and they were not restful hours. I will be going to bed at 8:30 tonight.

* I think I met someone today. It may turn out to be nothing. I was pretty surprised actually when he asked for my number. I'm still a little unsure of how to feel about it...

* I'm starving but I'm too tired to go make anything.

* Have I mentioned I'm tired? I can't even muster the energy to be excited about tomorrow.

This is a pitiful post. I'm pitiful. Really, I got nothing. Have a good night all.

Monday Mind Dump

* I'm feeling pretty happy today:)

* This snow is so amazing!! I haven't played in or seen this much snow since I was 10 years old. I went out in it last night with Denise. She abandoned me after 60 seconds though, because her socks got wet. I stayed out and played for a bit by myself. and ate a bunch of it. Is that gross? It was clean, I promise!!

* Therapy cancelled today because a majority of the roads are blocked off around town. I'm a little disappointed about that since it's been weeks since I talked to anyone. I'm anxious to get back and start working through so many things.

* I rejoined Netflix and spent most of last night and today watching scary movies. Love it!!!!

* S makes the most amazing sounds. One of them is this incredibly high pitched screech, which I think makes her sound like a Baby Pterodactyl. I thought of making that her nickname but I'm not sure D & P would approve.

* I can't stop dreaming about, Googling pictures of, planning trips to, and shopping for THE BEACH. What is wrong with me? I think I have tropical fever. And worse I keep trying to plan trips but I have no one to go with. Sad, lonely, cold Kourtnie. Guess I'll go frolic and drink fruity drinks and swim and take naps and long walks and snorkel by myself. Maybe I'll meet a handsome stranger to whisk me away.... Wait a second, I already did that. Scrap that idea:)

* Setting up utilities is tedious and boring and more hours on the phone than I ever imagined. Sigh.

* I still can't believe I'M MOVING INTO MY OWN PLACE!!!!!!! Ahhhhhh!!!!! The excitement has definitely not worn off yet!!!!! If I was able I'd be out shopping for furniture this instant.

* This might be embarrassing to him, but I think it was funny. I was hit on by one of my uncles on Facebook, who is 69, by the way. Priceless. And random.

That's all for now. Happy Monday!! And I hope everyone here is enjoying their Snow Day!!!!

Monday Mind Dump

Random things I'm thinking, feeling, doing today...

* I'm sick today. I started feeling yucky last night, but it's worse than I thought; I had to leave work early. My hips are killing me, I can't keep anything down, and I'm dizzy and nauseous. Not good. Let's hope this is a 24 hour thing.

* I have a crush. Actually, I have two. A HUGE one, and a little baby one. And these crushes are on actual guys! Eeek! It's been some time since I've felt that!!!

* I'm glad the holidays are over. That means my break from therapy is over!! Woohoo!!!! I'm going to a session Wednesday night. Has anyone in history ever been this excited about therapy?!?! I think NOT!!!!

* It was 24 degrees when I left the house today. I'm so freaking over this cold weather. One thing I will never insult St John for is its weather. It spoiled me. Must. Move. Back. To. Beach. ASAP.

* I'm lying on the couch listening to D and S have a very interesting conversation. Lots of screeching and grunting from S. Lots of "What is that sound?!" and "What are you saying?!" from D. Very cute.

* Migi is sitting on my head. I forget how and why he got there.

That is all. Happy Monday to everyone but me!!!!