I just got off the phone with the health center here. I have two appointments next week: One with a doctor just as a general check-up and assessment of my symptoms of depression and to re-evaluate my need for medication. I'm not sure how it will go, but I feel tons better since starting on Zoloft. And my anxiety is nearly non-existent! There doesn't seem to be any awful side effects so I'm assuming everything will stay the same with that. I am still having trouble sleeping, so hopefully they will prescribe something new for that since the Trazadone was a huge fail.
The other appointment I made was with a therapist on St Thomas. Now that one I'm a little nervous about. I dread rehashing my story to someone new. But I do think it's important, and necessary, for me to get back into therapy. Cross your fingers for me. Let's hope it all goes well.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Two Jobs
I'm working two jobs now. I wanted the first one, but the second one just fell into my lap. I'm working part-time retail because a friend's store was short staffed when her only employee left without any notice. And I belatedly realized after working this past week that it's too much! I'll be working around 55 hours and 6 days a week. And while I'm extremely grateful to even have work, it's a little overwhelming. When am I supposed to have time to cook dinner and grocery shop and clean and do laundry?! And party?!?! I did not think this through before I committed to it! And all I keep thinking is that I must be getting old! I remember the days of working 60 hour weeks and still partying like I didn't need the sleep!! I guess it's starting to catch up with me. Maybe I just need an adjustment period. At least I hope that's all it is...
Monday, March 7, 2011
Island = Fatty
After my miscarriage I lost about 15 pounds between my depression medication and general lack of appetite. But now I'm used to my meds, so my appetite is back. And since moving back to St John I have put 10 pounds back on. Not cool.
Living on this island makes me such a fatty. And here's why:
- I drink waaaay more here than I did in the states. Can you say "empty calories"?! Unfortunately liquor is one of the only inexpensive things on the island. Sometimes I skip dinner and have a Sex on the Beach instead...
- It's too hot, and let's be honest, I'm too lazy, to go for a run.
- Why don't I just join a gym you ask? Well because they are hellishly expensive here. There's one gym on the island and it costs $150 a month to be a member, plus a $500 yearly fee. No thank you.
- Fresh and healthy produce is hard to come by. And when I can find it, it is also hellishly expensive. $10 for a pound of strawberries anyone? No? Me either. And a lot of other fruits, veggies, lean cuts of meat and fish are just as expensive. Salmon is $20 by the pound here. Outrageous.
- All of that plus the fact that I have a chef as a boyfriend, who cooks food full of fat and butter and cholesterol and salt and other yummy goodness.
The good news is that 10 pounds isn't the end of the world. And even when I feel like a fatty, I've never been bigger than a size 8. So I do take some comfort in the fact that I have awesome genes. Thanks mom! But I do need to figure something out, and soon. Because another 10 pounds is not acceptable!
Living on this island makes me such a fatty. And here's why:
- I drink waaaay more here than I did in the states. Can you say "empty calories"?! Unfortunately liquor is one of the only inexpensive things on the island. Sometimes I skip dinner and have a Sex on the Beach instead...
- It's too hot, and let's be honest, I'm too lazy, to go for a run.
- Why don't I just join a gym you ask? Well because they are hellishly expensive here. There's one gym on the island and it costs $150 a month to be a member, plus a $500 yearly fee. No thank you.
- Fresh and healthy produce is hard to come by. And when I can find it, it is also hellishly expensive. $10 for a pound of strawberries anyone? No? Me either. And a lot of other fruits, veggies, lean cuts of meat and fish are just as expensive. Salmon is $20 by the pound here. Outrageous.
- All of that plus the fact that I have a chef as a boyfriend, who cooks food full of fat and butter and cholesterol and salt and other yummy goodness.
The good news is that 10 pounds isn't the end of the world. And even when I feel like a fatty, I've never been bigger than a size 8. So I do take some comfort in the fact that I have awesome genes. Thanks mom! But I do need to figure something out, and soon. Because another 10 pounds is not acceptable!
Voicemails
I. Hate. Voicemails. I think they are evil. I currently have 19 new voicemails on my phone and I refuse to listen to them. There are special instances where I LOVE messages, but 97% of the time I hate voicemails. Text me instead.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Friday Mind Dump
* It's been a bit since I last blogged! I've been busy getting settled and reacquainted with the island and friends:)
* I have a new job which I'm pretty excited about! I help run the St John Inn. It's different than anything else I've done, but I like it, the work is interesting and it keeps me busy!
* No matter how often I douse myself in bug spray, the "no see-ems" are constantly attacking me. Add to that the fact that dengue fever is going around again, I'm freaking out. And itchy. I'm tempted to apply 100% DEET onto my skin.
* I'm happier right now than I have been in months. Although I have to be honest and say that while I am hoping for the best, a part of me is still wary. So I would say that I am hesitantly optimistic. And I'm okay with that for right now.
* I'm undecided on how to spend my afternoon after I'm through with work today. I need to do laundry, but I'm sleepy and I want a nap, but I also need a pedicure!! Although, let's be honest: I doubt I'll be getting any laundry done today. So sleep or pretty toes?
* I'm super excited about this weekend!! Sleeping late, breakfast at Donkey Diner, sailing, and going to see live music tonight and tomorrow night!!
* I'm reading a new book called Year of Wonders and I'm totally and utterly bored by it! I need some new reading suggestions.
I hope you all have a fun and/or relaxing weekend ahead of you too! Happy Friday:)
* I have a new job which I'm pretty excited about! I help run the St John Inn. It's different than anything else I've done, but I like it, the work is interesting and it keeps me busy!
* No matter how often I douse myself in bug spray, the "no see-ems" are constantly attacking me. Add to that the fact that dengue fever is going around again, I'm freaking out. And itchy. I'm tempted to apply 100% DEET onto my skin.
* I'm happier right now than I have been in months. Although I have to be honest and say that while I am hoping for the best, a part of me is still wary. So I would say that I am hesitantly optimistic. And I'm okay with that for right now.
* I'm undecided on how to spend my afternoon after I'm through with work today. I need to do laundry, but I'm sleepy and I want a nap, but I also need a pedicure!! Although, let's be honest: I doubt I'll be getting any laundry done today. So sleep or pretty toes?
* I'm super excited about this weekend!! Sleeping late, breakfast at Donkey Diner, sailing, and going to see live music tonight and tomorrow night!!
* I'm reading a new book called Year of Wonders and I'm totally and utterly bored by it! I need some new reading suggestions.
I hope you all have a fun and/or relaxing weekend ahead of you too! Happy Friday:)
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